Love when I need it the most…
I had a very scary experience last night. Something like this has not happened in quite a while so it caught me completely off guard… I was sitting on my couch after a long day when I felt my heart race. It was thumping super fast. An uncomfortable fluttering feeling in my chest was immediately followed by seeing white spots. And then, completely white. I started to lean forward and tell T what was going on but I was frozen with fear. Finally, the thumping stopped and I could see again.
It only lasted several seconds but it felt like a lifetime. I was absolutely terrified afterward and in an instant all of these terrible feelings and traumatic memories rush in. I am so happy I was not standing because I would have fallen. I do not know what happened or why but now I’ll have to go and get it checked out this week. That means a trip to the ICD clinic where the docs will check my pacemaker defibrillator to see what was recorded. I am trying not to be paralyzed by this and continue living my life but I’m not going to lie… this really threw me off my game. I so don’t want to deal with this right now.
I went to my room afterward and stared at my beautiful hearts and concentrated on all of the images. I closed my eyes and told my heart that we are beautiful and healthy and it was just a little scare. Nothing serious. In the moments after my scary experience, looking at those hearts provided the hope I needed to be strong.
Can everyone please send my heart an extra kick of healthy vibes today? I definitely need it.
Which brings me to the below! These healthy heart cards came from Iowa and they rocked my world! They are coming along with me today in my wallet so if I get scared when I’m out and about I can take one out and concentrate on the saying.
Thank you thank you thank you.
You can see more images of these amazing cards HERE
