December 2009
11 posts
"Wired but Tired"
I recently got some information sent to me about Mitral Valve Prolapse from a close friend. This was the first time I had ever read something about MVP that has been written from a holistic approach. I find it very interesting especially considering how each paragraph really captures exactly how my body acts/ reacts.
People with mitral valve prolapse seem somehow to be wired differently. Their...
End of year cleansing?
So incredibly sick all night long. In bed since this morning when I could finally rest my body. I feel like I got an ab workout with the amount of puking that’s gone on. Yikes. I’m choosing to look at this in a positive way, like maybe my body is getting rid of all the toxins, the scary memories, the unpleasant things that happened this year. It sure did look toxic (Ew). My body...
Breakdown
There is one word to describe my state as I write this at 4:45 am. MESS. I’m absolutely exhausted. I need another word for exhausted. The past two nights I’ve been awake in pain and discomfort. Something’s definitely been “off” lately. Over this last week I’ve noticed my body isn’t in sync. As if it’s gone a little haywire and can’t seem to...
The true meaning of these holidays
Soak up every minute you get to spend with your loved ones this time of year.
We always find ourselves caught up in every day life, we may get annoyed at small things, or family gatherings may bring anxiety for some… but at the end of the day anyone who has family (or friends you consider family) is incredibly lucky. I’ve heard those words since I was very young and I find that...
Trauma
I have been meditating a lot on this idea of TRAUMA lately. I’m certainly affected by everything that’s happened but the trauma… well that is the gift that keeps on giving. When I knock out one obstacle there always seems to be a new and exciting one waiting for me. I’m not complaining here, more like marveling at the layers upon layers of the human psyche that are...
A Newer New Rheumatologist
A constant subject here is my quest for a Rheumatologist. I have had terrible experiences in the past with this particular breed of doctor and I find it is a very hard job to fill in my overall picture of health. I have lost trust in doctors because of some of these dudes.
You see, my illness is so rare that quite often these doctors guess and suggest medicines (many of them toxic) to treat the...
Relief? Soon?
Acupuncture brought me the greatest relief yesterday. It was an intense session seeing I hadn’t been able to make it last week. My acupuncturist got to as many trigger points as possible and it hurt, but in that good way when you get a massage… you just know that this has to be releasing something “bad”.
I felt great lying on that table with all of those needles sticking...
No Limits
Started to feel like a person again yesterday. I had energy, and my body hurt only a little compared to what has been going on this previous week.
So what did I do? I did everything I had been wanting to accomplish in the past week in one day. I push my body to the limit! Walked to the grocery store, went shopping, cooked, anything to prove to myself that I can still do things!
Paying for it...
Stress Pain Stress Pain Stress
I’m sure it’s no coincidence that this major pain flare up has come a month or so into one of the most stressful times I’ve ever experienced. Yes, I am STILL in pain. It will be a week tomorrow that this heavy discomfort has terrorized my bones muscles and joints. They ache for relief. I do anything for an hour or even ten minutes of sweet relief. Something about this decision, the entire...