January 2009
11 posts
Nervous
I have a procedure in the morning up at Columbia. Routine test, I’ve had it done before, but I am still equally nervous everytime. It’s an endoscopy, a procedure where they put a camera into your throat, down your espohagus and to your stomach. We are trying to figure out the elusive “under left rib side pain thing” that’s been happening for months now. The doc will...
Kicker Love
Today marks the one year anniversary of the Kicker!! It was exactly on this day last year that my pacemaker/defibrillator was implanted in my chest.
It was exactly one year ago today that I lay in a hospital bed at the Cleveland Clinic so scared, so unable to see my future. Although, the minute the Kicker went in I felt different.. I could BREATHE again!
It was only a year ago that I needed...
PS
My appt was for 1 pm. I still haven’t been seen. I sit (as per usual in cardiac appointments) in a waiting room: median age 55 , mostly male. I hate waiting. Especially waiting for this! They turn up the juice in each lead one at a time (there are 3 total), and you feel palpatations and its so uncomfortable. Ugh. Anxious anxious anxious.
Crazy!!
I have a jam-packed day of appointments, all health related and I feel like I imagine some high powered executive feels as I make calls and arrangements from the back of a cab to Columbia. Rolling calls, belongings scattered on the back seat, I could use an assistant! It’s such a full-time job this healing gig. Keeping up with all of this has forced me to be super organized. Could I put...
Yessssss
Saw my main heart doctor up at Columbia yesterday. It’s been three months since I’ve last seen her (a triumph in itself as I had to go monthly previous to this time).
She came in to see me and immediately said how healthy I looked! I could tell she was happy with the progress we’ve made in a year —after all, in June she admitted me to the hopsital for a heart transplant...
Columbia
Up here today for Ticker check up. I am exhausted because I did not sleep at all last night… Waiting rooms are bad enough but I’m naush and can’t keep my eyes open! Nap time after this. Can’t wait to be finished.
Rainy aches
I’ve been particularly achy lately. Espeically the past two days (this weather is my enemy).
In the spirit of the new year, I’ve made a decision to just accept the pain when it hits, and go on with my days. It’s a huge mental exercise but I can do it! I am just going to be “ok” with it, stop obsessing over why why why is his happening, and push through it to do...
Peace Out 2008
I made it. Phew!
Never been so happy to say goodbye to a year…